Today is going well. I've spent most of my day adding to my photobucket since I now have the photobucket app on my phone. This way I can see all my fav pics on my phone but without them actually being in my phone's memory. Just a bit safer. Not much, but still. Looking at all these beautiful girls with such strong self control is keeping me out of the kitchen. Doing well for a couple days is really not worth the amount of pride I have right now but I feel like I can actually keep this going through to thanksgiving dinner :D. I haven't felt this strong in a long time and I could not have done it without my fabulous twitter family.
I do need to use my tumblr more. I'm just benefiting from the work put in by everyone else to provide thinspo and not really contributing. I promise to do better about that.
Everytime I wanna get a small snack I think about what the scale will say in the morning. Yes my measurements are getting smaller and that makes me happy but I really really really wanna see that stupid number go down. I'm only going to get that if I buckle down and stay strong. There's really no excuse for losing this war because I was skinny once before and I know I can get skinny again.
I have one pair of jeans that are too tight. I think I'm gonna start trying them on once a week just to remind myself that I'm still fat. They aren't even a small size so fitting into them is no great achievement. But for now they are my motivation.
<3 fiend
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