Morning loves!
I can sense tomorrow and the feast it brings. I'm so incredibly nervous. This is my first thanksgiving without final exams looming overhead and so I don't have the same urge to binge due to stress. Now my urge is just because my mom is a really good cook and I know how good dinner is going to be. I've said on here before that I'm not going to cause a scene or hide or anything. This is the family's fav holiday and if it means working extra hard and crying myself to sleep because of everything I undid by eating, so be it. I'm so far from my ultimate goal anyway what's a bit more work. Buuuut that doesn't mean I plan to eat everything in sight. I just need to focus and pay attention to what I eat and how much. Nearly everything made will be healthy so if I manage portion control I shouldn't be in too much trouble with the scale... I hope anyway... This is not supposed to be the stressful part of holidays :(.
Okay so.... yesterday morning the scale hadn't budged but I felt really good because of the workouts I had the other day. Then I failed at my goal of 15 miles and only hit 10. But that didn't depress me so much as the fact that I ate...and ate...and ate... In the space of like an hour I had 400 calories. A little before I passed out the scale didn't show too much damage. Hopefully all the working out in the last two days counteracted 400 calories but I dunno......... I guess I'll find out in a minute..... At least I just woke up hungry :)
Going to try and get 10 miles in this morning. Gonna go slow (5mph or so) because I laid down with the start of yet another migraine last night and I would like it to stay away. Ended up falling asleep almost the minute I stretched out and that was around 7pm so I got loads of sleep and head only vaguely hurts.
I wish you all the best in preparing for tomorrow.
<3 fiend
I think i'm going to purging a lot tomorrow. i'm nervous the only thing in my mind is the scale
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